Ipod Feedback & No Worries.

In other news, I’m not going to be able to write many more posts for a while. You know how I stabbed my finger in early March? Well, that’s gotten worse. I didn’t sever a tendon, but I nicked it pretty good, and then made the situation worse by using my hand too much before it healed. (I THOUGHT a few weeks would be sufficient. It wasn’t. )

So I’m scheduled for surgery (my very 1st surgery) on May 15th. Then there’s a minimum 2 week period where I’ll have to keep it elevated above my heart. For 2 weeks. My mother is coming for the first week, and Elaine, our babysitter of choice from Edmond, is coming for the second week.

So, yeah. It kinda sucks. And yes, I feel utterly stupid. And have a newfound respect for scissors. (As should you all, now…)

At the same time, I try to keep it in perspective. Could’ve been MUCH worse. And the fact that I have full mobility NOW is a good sign. But as one who loves to write, the fear of not being able to was looming.

No wonder God is reaching me with messages about Worry these days. I watch LifeChurch.tv podcast sermons at random. I missed the Hostage series (due to the move), so I’m just catching up on it. Last night I watched the sermon on Worrying. It was, as you can imagine, excellent. Well-timed and pointed.

Then the next chapter in “The Power of Positive Thinking” (which I’ve been reading the last month) is on… Worrying.

I’m always amazed how precisely God sychronizes my life with what He wants me to know, just when He wants me to know it. He consistently and faithfully anticipates my need, and fills it. And the more I pursue Him and His truth – whether in the Bible directly, sermons, books, music, etc. – the more He reveals His hand in my life.

I’m slowly finding a peace with not knowing, with not being in control. I don’t know why God wants me to be laid up for a while. I’m not going to be able to serve on the LifeChurch.tv Internet Campus for a long time, and in my mind that’s a bad thing. But I’ just thinking about my own microscopic world. God sees everything.

Maybe there’s something I’m supposed to do. To learn. To grow. Perhaps there’s someone I’m supposed to meet and talk to whom I wouldn’t have met otherwise. Doctors, nurses, etc. Who knows? I have no idea.

But I’m choosing to trust in Him. I’m choosing to have a stubborn faith in His goodness, in His ultimate plan. It’s not always logical, faith. Which is why I’m emphasizing that it’s a choice. It’s easy to look at life and say it’s chaotic, out of control and God is a twisted puppetmaster. It’s hard to see the mess all around you and say, “God’s got it covered.”

On a final note, I’ll probably be uploading more audio and video blog entries. So my skills in those areas will develop more. Heh….

That’s it. I’ll catch you guys later.

Kevin

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